A cup of tea alone.

As I walk through this separation/divorce call it what you may and perhaps I should rephrase that at times I run at times I stumble and at times I just sit in a heap. If one thing is clear it sure is a lonely road. Many friends do not know what to say it seams at times the only one's who seam to make sense are the one's who have been through it. Yet you look at them wondering how to get to the other side. I am amazed at how those who have not got Christ make it.
In fact I amazed at those who have Christ how they make it to.
Someone said make a five year goal how about make a day goal. How about some days just make an hour goal. Sounds silly but that is how we make it.Ther is no five year goal you simply are trying to live.
If you have children you can relate your heart is totally broken by all that is going on yet it is broken even more as you see them go through even more.
I think the hardest thing has to have been to see me kids leave their school. I still hold on for miracles about it. But it has brooken all our hearts.
I think in it all each person holds on for a miracle to wake up each day and just not to feel all this pain.
I think it is so true it is a testing of our faith and perhaps even for those around us how will they cope with our pain will they just stand and lecture or will they show a loving arm an ear to listen and miracle.
One friend came and helped cut my grass with me i was so surprised.They showed me how to ride this lawn mower and in it all I felt wow I have achieved something. Another cut the grass with not one complaint.
If one thing I have learnt being a friend is so much different than we think.
I could cry a million tears on the road I have travelled yet in it I hold onto God has not let go.
I may have my tea alone I may cry alone but alone I am differently not for God is carrying me along this road.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Bringing back your muchness.

Life is surely a journey. Recently I watched the new Alice in Wonderland the cover looked surely interesting. In it all it taught me a thing or two about me. The Hatter told Alice that she had lost her muchness this she by the end of the movie had gained and in my opinion had actually gained some more muchness. Muchness to me is something that drives us to be ourselves. When I was younger I wanted to be a fashion designer and I loved the countryside and being with my godmother. Then my parents divorced and throughout the years my muchness seamed to disappear. When I visited England in 2007 the last time I was there. I felt a little part of me come back as I stood in my godmothers house and looked at her garden the Lisa who walked around there with so much hope and dreams was still alive in me deep down. The past few years have surely been interesting and as I walk through this separation I ask myself the question where is my Muchness perhaps it is in painting or walking or simply remembering the Lisa in my own Wonderland. I look forward to having much Muchness in my life again.
So as you sit with your tea and cake or sandwich think where you Muchness is because we all need some and we all need to hold onto it. It is what made us US and what will make us who we will be.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Special people

As our time comes to an end at WCA I am reminded of the amazing friends that God has sent my way. The school has been a wonderful blessing of love and encouragement of memories and tears. I have learnt to value some amazing true friends. Some of these amazing people face many trials and their testimony is one of hope and encouragement. It was a miracle we got to stay until May. We believe for a miracle that we may stay longer. God is an amazing God I am so blessed to have seen His hand work in so many ways.
Look around today and just see how far God has bought you.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

The comfy chair of God

Today was a bit of a tough day. But the girls and I went and got a snack we meet a friend while we were out. They use to be a Pastor. This man ministered words of wisdom and kindness. It felt like sitting in a comfy chair and yet as I think about what he said it is this way with God. His words and His alone are like sitting in a comfy chair feeling safe and not alone and knowing that God truly comforts the weary. I don't know what the next day holds. I do know I love just sitting in the comfy chair with God. This man may not be a Pastor now but his ministering words touched my heart and he truly was a messenger of God. I think we need to sit long enough to know that God is that ultimate comforter.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Your Testimony

Life is not always what we want it to be. My parents divorced when I was 15 and now I am getting a divorce when my oldest is 14. Life is not always how we wished it could be. As I type the girls have so many days left at their school. It is somewhat refreshing the many people who have come up and said we are praying for you we are still believing that you will be back. It simply would take a miracle. Yet in all this people also say how much I have changed how they can see God working. I fought a good fight as I say what did I have to lose. I stand by what I believe the Bible says to dearly look after the family God has given me. This is not how I wanted a family to be, but for now I hold onto God and hold tight that He is bringing us through. I guess the last months I did not always see what others have seen. I am thankful for the kind words of friends and the school. It is true with every part of me I will miss the girls school dearly. I was so touched by the teachers who have said we will believe you are coming back and how much they would miss us. In saying it all it is surely in hard times that our testimony is shown whether we are going to just spout of words and verses or we are going to act and do what is right.
To all who are traveling the hard road or a valley remember what testimony are you portraying I wished I could have done a better job at times but one thing I know for sure. I hold onto the God that has held me for so many years and to Him I am thankful and grateful too.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

The wisdom of the young.

The wisdom of the young. My daughters always amaze me at how wise they are. We have a relationship which allows us all to communicate the good, bad and the ugly. In that there is freedom and grace to be ouselves. We have often stopped the car and danced around it. Or laughed with the music loud. How often we forget that we should come to God like this open to receive open to be ourselves and open to listen.
So today just think for a moment who you want to be viewed as one who will listen or one who will just miss out on the amazing things of life it is a choice.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

With love Rita

On Tuesday April 27th 2009 my sister in law in England died of cancer. She had cancer in a lot of her body. That very same day I had an email from my sister saying that Rita was very sick so I called my brother. His voice was very silent She died today Lisa. Emily my oldest daughter got to write and tell her about Christ and I got to share a little before her death I can still hear her voice she was from the Seychelles. I wrote a story it was a simple story about how if you plant one simple daisy and plant some to give to others that when people see pink daisies they would remember to plant hope for cancer patients I never got the chance to read that story to her nor has it been published yet.
My point of it all is this in 2007 when I last saw Rita I never knew that 2 years later she would die. Life is very short make the most of the time you have with loved one's turn your heartaches into joy, your hurt into giving and your sorrow into a chance to change others life.
So to the many people going through hard times I give you a pink daisy to remember pink daisies are for hope.
Always remembered dear Rita.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.