Life is not all it appears to be !!!

As i turn fifty this year my tolerance for people being rude has surely gone up. The intolerance for how government sectors can often do what they want. That work places make their employees feel small yet smile on their adds that all is well. A few years ago I was put in a situation where my work shifts were put to nothing and behind my back I was being told that this one person would do everything to get me fired. Last year I made a stand against a manager at another store and was accused of saying things in their store that I did not say. I stood being pulled down for over forty minutes being told that I was an employee, regardless if I was not at work, as a customer I was not allowed to complain at all. They never came back with names and never said sorry, I was devastated. I have seen favoritism where people get promoted and are made full time yet do not do full time hours. One young lady was promoted and I swear her job is to make my life hell she shouts at me every time I move away from my station, told me off for saying Merry Christmas and talks about me behind my back. I have got to the point I dread going to work, I dread being shouted at and being made small by a woman years younger than me. It has knocked my confidence and made me feel small in a place where I used to love the customers. I used to say stand up for yourself at this job, but now I just want to move on to find a place where I am treated with respect. Customers are told write a nice comment about your cashier but none of those comments get to us and no one cares all that matters is that money is made and it is just wrong. I was brought up in a world where people said please, thank you and had respect for a person older than them, but that is blown to the wind and if you dare complain then you are the one who is made small. One could say go to a higher authority and complain I did that and was made to feel very small by management. I never was bullied at school, I was quiet, kept to myself, not sure if this is bullying to be honest what is happening to me, but I know I hate it. I do believe that every person has the right to stand up for themselves just not in co-operate America. Customers love me but that has never been enough it does not pay the bills and my confidence has been shot at this job I gave my all to. Now what I pray to God is that a company would hire me, where I can make a difference in others lives or even better that I will get my own business going where I can empower other women to make a difference and I treat them with respect knowing that we all have something to give and something to gain from another person. You never know what truly goes on in life. I lived in a very small village in England my parents argued a lot but no one knew, nor cared. I loved going to my neighbors house and escaping the arguments my fear of walking home in the dark did not appear to matter, to not listen to the arguments outweighed my fear. I never wanted to be a single mum living so far from England and yet here I am trying desperately hard to get home one day. Many think life is a certain way but have you ever just talked to someone just bothered to care about someone other than yourself? You might find they have something to give you and you may offer them hope when they feel their life is oh so alone. It's amazing how much a smile can make someone feel happy or a hug. See in my world you just have to keep believing keep on pressing forward because just maybe tomorrow is the breakthrough that will change your life.