Good night Dad

It's been an interesting year so far. As I sit here I am reminded that today is Fathers Day many of us have had a hard time with their dad's what can I say.A few years ago I felt blessed to reconnect with my Dad then life changed this past Christmas and all of sudden what I thought was a blessing became a very empty hole in my heart. Perhaps when all is said and done God will have saved my heart from being hurt any more but say you wonder what it would be like to have someone really care. I think of a Dad protecting wanting the very best for his children and even in my fifties I see how much I have wanted that. Perhaps years do not make our hearts heal, in truth I think it makes our hearts more aware that if you dare to risk and care you may indeed get hurt. Instead of joy I have ended up with tears and that is not how the story was suppose to end up. I sat in my closet today in tears. Perhaps being a dad that cares is to much to ask, perhaps to many of us it is just a dream. In truth I have had the hardest time thinking that God cares for me because of my Dad. Perhaps it is time for me and maybe many to say Good night Dad and start on another chapter a new book so speak. I wish you all the best on your new book and I hope for us that our book has a happy ending.