Trust

That small word that makes us think about who we are and who we are willing to allow into our lives. Trust can mean many things you trust someone with a secret, you have a trust fund set up for your kids, you trust someone to do something for you, but what happens when that little word is pushed to the limit and that word trust is just letters on your floor or fragments in your heart broken. Many say that honesty and trust run hand in hand many have persusive words to sweet talk but honesty is if you haven't built trust in a person then perhaps there is no honesty. Trust is accepting a person faults and all and loving those quirky things. I know of a situation when someone died and the trust fund that they left for their kids the rules behind were not carried through. That person may not be here but trust and honesty was not kept. When a person gets divorced trust is broken.No would ever think of comparing divorce with Christ's betrayal but in truth there are a lot of similarities in the fact the moment Judas betrayed trust was brooken and then his sweet talk Jesus saw through it all. In the same way in divorce those words of promise now mean nothing. I say Trust is a thing you can take tiny steps it might be like I did this week I started writing again. I trusted myself that it was alright to be hurt by someone's comment but now I was going to trust that I loved writing. I tell you that don't let one moment of mistrust destroy the person you can be.....You are worth so much more than that. When I look at Christ I see that He knew all what Judas was going to do but He trusted God that He had a big plan.. His plan is that in taking tiny steps you can not only Trust Him but you can live a life where your past does not run your future.. You are amazing I trust that you are going to do great things because...Trust means that every day we have the chance to make a new page and Trust that the pages can be beautiful, amazing and awesome...

Judge little forgive often.

Have you ever watched a court scene on the television or perhaps even seen one in person..the evidence is brought before a judge and he makes a judgement. People are not always so nice they cast judgement on us and others by our past mistakes thinking that they can play God. I use and still do at times find myself looking for some people to make mistakes so I can cast my own judgmental judgement. But there are many verses that tell us in the Bible not to judge others least we be judged ourselves. After going through a divorce and seeing many. I see in my own heart it is the need to look at ourselves and see how we can better our lives first before we start pointing the finger. Perhaps many of us cast the first stone on ourselves not allowing ourselves to feel God's grace of forgiveness. I will have to say having a few good friends to encourage and guide me has been a true blessing. It is not for us to cast the first stone it is more for us to look into another persons eyes and ask ourselves the question what indeed would Christ want us to do... So in closing judge little and forgive often you may find your life a lot happier.

To be loved by Him alone is enough

When a person is dating there is this happy feeling that one might feel. You feel like you are walking on air, you have a smile that no one can really take away. Some how life appears not so heavy.It's amazing though how when a person goes through a separation or divorce all of a sudden just hurt floods in. I often look back over many years of life wishing life had been different and wishing that my front porch was filled with two people wanting the same dream. But what is love...the age old question.. some say it is just a feeling, others grasp onto a fleeting moment in time...but let's be honest love is honesty even when things are bad that trust that a person has your back and that you can trust that they are telling you the truth. That feeling that even when the bills are flooding in that something that says you are going to be alright.... that moment you feel that arm around you when you say nothing but they tell you I know you are hurting I just want you to know that I care... In my life for sure I have had many a friend who has done that for me...I hope that some people can say that i was there for them...some say that is just being a friend, but not in my eyes you see a friend cares enough to love you and care for you it's more than just a friend it is a person who has gone the extra mile. I will have to say I did not always love people very much, I always saw more faults than good and I often looked at others and how they had such an amazing love for their spouse and oh how I cried for that. I still get sad when my world feels like it is caving in and I wished that I had that persons arm around my shoulder saying I love you and that everything was going to be alright..but perhaps one of the hardest things I ever faced in my life my brothers death taught me to love often and forgive oh so much more.Perhaps in his death I was given an amazing gift of Love the chance to see how i could love others. Often Love is not in a person it is in believing in what God says that we are wonderful in His eyes uniquely made and His child.. not easy to believe when your heart is shattered and tears flood down your face and your marriage is no more....but won't you just close your eyes with me and for one moment feel God's arm around you and His honest and faithful voice saying that you are enough and that you are loved....I know if I closed my eyes more and held onto that then my heart would feel the love it often so lacks. So take one hand, one belief that you are Loved by one amazing God and that is enough.

Moments in life

I love Christmas, to be honest I hated it as a child, not that I did not like all the tree's and decorations I did but my parents would often argue and so Christmas meant more time at home and I loved school. To this day I love Carols being sung and going to church although far different in America than the traditional services of England. This past Christmas I wanted it to last forever, holding onto my children and the memories we had made. 2015 means re evaluating my life my daughters turn 19 and 13 with one off to college. How time has slipped through my fingers and I find myself screaming at the clock of life saying no it was just yesterday that I held her in my arms and thanked God that He blessed me with her. Where has time gone like a time capsule I wanted to freeze time. Yet that is not the case. Yesterday we looked back at photos of friends and in it all it seemed such a life time had gone by. Some say childhood is just a fleeting moment in time and yet like Mary in the Bible I hold every moment of my children's lives close to my heart. This house and the walls and the garden outside silly memories made of singing to high heaven Like a Firework or snow made out of flour, dancing in the rain and mud fights. I may have not had money to buy a car for her or pay for piano lessons for my other daughter but in it all I would not have traded all those amazing memories. Life is so short I often think so many people do not realize that holding onto grudges, being sarcastic and forgetting just to forgive and live life remembering that, that moment will never come again..it is fragile just like a fallen leaf beautiful in its very moment... So in closing make the most of the moments in life and hold them dear to your heart because those moments are precious and what you make of them is up to you....