Wished life was different.

Since coming back to the States I sure miss England seeing all the wonderful places and my family. I never realized how much I missed them. I just ignored it every time I felt homesick. I don't know about you sometimes it feels like you try and try. Since being a single mum I have tried selling British food, dog bow ties, dog biscuits, my stories online, cleaning and even educational supplies that I designed all to little avail. Sometimes it feels like you are banging your head against a wall. This last few weeks I have had issue after issue with my car and my daughter's car. The carpet cleaner died and that is so not good with a puppy. On the flip side I am still standing. My sister even emailed me saying she wanted no more to do with me. It is times like this I wished hugs grew on trees. It may sound silly but I get enjoyment from looking at the Christmas cook books. This sense of wanting to go home and no idea how I can ever afford to do it or how do I find the energy to keep on pushing forward. I so wished I could just magically make something work. On the flip side a tree fell down and did not destroy my neighbor's fence and hey we got great deals at REI for Christmas. What to say when you wish life was different a Pastor said ages ago, "If you are going to do something, do it well." So my advice is find someone to encourage you to keep pushing forward because if you don't you will never get to see what might have happened and just maybe what might have happened is closer than you think.