Trials of life.

I took a test today I did not pass I failed to be honest I had to make 75% I made 44% I sat crying in my car driving aimlessly around a city. But in all my tears and nearly fogged up sunglasses I had told God I don't want anything in my life unless it is truly what you want. I knew in myself I had answered questions the way they should of been answered before and now in my heart I told God I would rather be poor than have something that you don't want for me. But God please get me home to see my family in England and please provide for me and my family. I don't want to always be asking but God please see my heart. As I sat doing test after test at home I realized one thing if we come to realize that God is everything then perhaps in that moment He takes the reins and makes something out of nothing. My the trials for me have been long and long and I so have cried so many tears. Yet inside I see how God has changed little old me. Perhaps next week I will past this test perhaps not,but one thing I do know through all the years I have lived God still cares for me. You might not see it and as I type this I am saying God don't forget how much I want to go home and please God remember me. He does see it all and I do believe He will make away.It is like the picture below it is drift wood to some quite ugly but to me I found it absolutely beautiful. What Man says is impossible God says He can and He will. Please have a cup of tea with me today.