2014

When I look back at 2013 I sit and see that it sure ended up not as I expected. I kind of dreaded the year to be honest the dreaded 13. God sure had plans for me and so to be honest as the year ended I felt rather sad. I am glad I am going to college now wished I had gone years ago. This year I hope to learn french. I did it at school but hated it. This time I really want to learn it and use it to reach others. I am also going to try and get my stories published again. I sure hope God leads me to the right people. I think life is much better if you just say God here I am. So I encourage you

this year to ask God where He wants you to go and let Him guide your steps the year may not be what you had planned but when you look back perhaps it will make you see His bigger picture. Wishing you all a wonderful New Year. Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Friendship and life

My sister and I are seven years apart, we shared a room as children. She probably hated it more than me. I would keep her awake at night, not wanting to be the last one asleep. We eventually had our own rooms her a smaller room which to me now looking back appears totally unfair as she was older. She never complained about her room or about me keeping her awake. She would decorate our room at Christmas and put up with me forever cleaning my cupboard out. At age five I had a horrible room, we had this room that was the lounge and our parents decided to divide into our room, but I had the side with not much light. So I would sleep on the floor on my sisters side. She was my protector and the one that put up with me. Years have gone by since those days of sharing a bedroom and as I sit and look back it was such a fragment of time. I live along way from her now and yet I will always love and care for her. It's interesting life can be when our brother died I think it made us realize what we had in each other and I am thankful for that. See friendship and caring for each other does not come in age groups it comes in being there listening wanting the best. I have a friend Sharon who is quite younger than me and I would do so much for her because she is amazing just wonderful she has listened to me cry down the phone and prayed for me and always just loves me for me. Friends have sent gifts from England when I was homesick and others helped with yard sales to make money to go home. It is not in just words we find true friends and true bonds it is being there always to care and love each other through good bad and ugly times to hold someones hands and say you are going to be alright when their world is falling apart is priceless. My sister and all those memories are to me just as present today as yesterday because a few things have not changed I love her more today than yesterday, she will always be my sister and no one can take that away and I understand just a little more today about her. So for that I am grateful. So even you live miles away for now from friends and family take the moment to remember the good and just listen to someone else you might give them hope in more ways than you would ever know. Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Change

I absolutely hate change and yet my life has been nothing but change.My parents divorced good or bad as that was. In my mind I wanted the home I grew up in as a teen to always be ours, a place to always come home to. When I visited it six years ago I found myself so wanting my family to be there and not the new owners who had don up the house. Then in my own life I wanted the classic family that went on holidays and were forever there for each. I did get that in my children, just not in my marriage. And so again as my sister moves I find myself not wanting change. The familiarity of her home and the faces now all grown up and her life has changed, not by her choice but by life and so they have to move and I find myself grieving yet another loss in my life. Not like a death but a one yearning for something to just stay the same. I have a friend who has not moved from her Village and years ago I would of thought that this was very square and absolutely boring yet now the older I am I realize that this is pure heaven. She has been able to bring up her children with traditions from the past and present and embodied in them the value of her life and the things that hold true to her. It is those things not a television or computer that she and her husband have managed to bring up four amazing young ladies, with strong family values, believes and traditions. Yet so many of us are drawn to move and find adventure. In looking at my life I believe that adventure can be found around us and that perhaps we lose out on many blessings by always wanting more and go out into this world to find it. Change can be good but perhaps in seeing how my friend has embraced lives changes and combined the past, there is a sense of harmony and that no one can put a price too. Please have a cup of tea with me today.

College at forty-six years old.

Well I took a leap of faith, or stupidity some might say and signed up for college. I was accepted at a very prestigious college however these colleges often do not bare into their factors that one might not want to end up with owing loads of money. It appears that they are oblivious to the fact that one has to eat and survive four years and then at the end if you took out their massive loans you would be paying it back beyond your life time. So I went to a local

college. I felt out of place in a world of hustle and bustle of young people, but I sucked it up and went on my first day. Parking was absolutely awful and I had to ask a young man to park my car. I have found that balancing my life is a huge balancing act. Some of the young people in my class appear to talk more than take it seriously. My life is ticking by and I am running this race asking God to direct me and open up doors for me. As I sit here I have to type up another essay today for one of my classes. To the many who venture to get a degree at an older age I encourage you not to think of yourself as a disadvantage more that you are more mature and perhaps value life more. More that you have something amazing to give the world. I might be forty six but that is just a number and does not reflect what I as a person can give to this world and neither should your age. So go for whatever dreams you have and fly high. Pleas have a cup of tea with me today.

Believing in Yourself

We can stand and feel courageous. We aren't meant to feel belittled, or small, or like nothing. We are meant to feel like with God we can achieve great things, anything. Sometimes through trials, it is easy to feel like our world is a wall just crumbling. But we aren't meant to feel that way. We are supposed to use those crumbling stones as stepping stones to something better. Maybe we went through a trial so we can finally see how others are struggling and how even with an encouraging word you can help them. Maybe it was or will be to bring you to something better beyond your wildest dreams. One of my favourite verses is in 1 Peter 5:10 which says, "And the God of all grace who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself Restore you and make you Strong, Firm, and Steadfast." God not only is with us through everything but also is there to help us through it and after it. He is there for us. When life seems to rock our world, we need to stand strong together in God who can bring us through it and will always be there to help us. We should stand Courgeously.

Please have a cup of tea with me today. Em

Daddy..I will always love you..please say you will always love me !!

My dad and i use to go for walks, and play peaking out of a window game. He never dressed up as Father Christmas, i choice to not have him give me away when I got married and he has never seen my children. Yet how many women young and old can truly say all they want to hear is their Dad say that He loves them and then perhaps say that they are sorry. We all mess up,don't get me wrong but the lessons of being a parent are huge. It is in simple things like listening in admitting you were wrong at times and seeing that life is not all about yourself but actually giving back of yourself and seeing someone live a better life than you perhaps did. It is in just being there with your whole heart no excuses not saying a word but giving with no cost but a heart of compassion and brokenness and hearing what your child really has to say. It is as if time has stopped and you get a moment to not reclaim years but to make peace with all the tears you have cried inside. Yet so many parents do not cross this road, is it pride, is it their own insecurities or is it just their own doubt that perhaps in listening and allowing another to share their pain and that person being the very person they brought into the world that they might not be loved. I tell you in listening in being venerable one allows God to stop the world and you learn to have compassion you learn that to love one most carry another's burdens and to love your own child you must lay down your own self to hear the broken cries of so many children/adults who cry from their hearts Daddy I will always love you... please say you will always love me. It is simple men however old we as women and girls are we all just want a dad to listen and just truly love us. One that says That's my girl and says truly with a humble heart I am proud of my girl and I will always love you... So will you Man up or will you watch your son or daughter cry alone.. Your choice... but let me tell you time waits for no man and it does not wait for you.

Blessing others, lets all get involved.

It is so easy to get caught up in our own worries and not bless others. But there are some very simple things we can do that cost little if anything. A phone call,a letter sent email or an actual letter. If you are in a place where you can bless someone then do so, God entrusted you with that money not for you to be greedy. Give without adding how you are blessing them and how you are on a tight budget do it because it is right. Offer to cut the grass or clean someone's house or even baby sit or walk someone's dog. Stop looking in and more out. Cook a meal, clean a kitchen, clean someone's car buy some flowers. The list could go on. Every day many people and children go without food. Starbucks and many other stores that brew up coffee every single day throw away their coffee grains you can get these for free just go by and ask and these can be used on gardens and compost heaps. Every day food stores chuck out bread and food. Some is given to food banks, but go by see if you can get some and bless a family. Food stores that cut up fruit for fruit bowls chuck up peel every single day. This can be used to feed pigs etc or even on a compost heap. Food stores chuck out slightly bruised foods. We have become such perfect orientated that we cannot simply cut out a bruise on an apple. Food stores chuck out vegetables and fruit that have some rotten one's in that batch. By simply going through it and sorting it out you can bless others. Please note that with fruit and vegetables they must be washed before freezing and used for consumption. By simply going to stores and reaching out to others you can look beyond your circumstance and find blessing. I challenge you to do so. http://www.feeding5k.org/ The link above is based in England and simply is a challenge. I truly encourage you to make a difference because we all can.