Your heart longs for normalcy

I think the most difficult thing through a divorce is that weather you are a child or an adult your heart longs for normalcy. The times you see someone smile and laugh. You notice couples holding hands more you see families more. It is like all of sudden you are not part of that crowd and your heart aches for that. I think even when your spouse is nice to you through all this your heart yearns for everything to just be magically put right. Some say people should never get back together. I think let go and let God. Only God and time will tell the fate of two people and if two people will ever change and weather they will get back together or not. Perhaps normalcy is truly just holding on each day to God and knowing whatever He does that you will be alright weather you are a child or an adult.
Surely in my heart that is what I hope for.
Please have a cup of tea with me today

Lost in a crowd

It's amazing how everyone is busy when you call them and want a friend to come over. You think that divorce is just a fragment in time. The fragments affect the roots of a child from friends saying they are always busy to them not knowing what to say. Everyone seams normal accept this new family of ours and where do we belong.?There are clothes to fold and the dishes to wash. There is the constant fight to keep a float and you feel like a sinking boat. While others quote how they are off for Easter break or off to the movies. Fragmented friends in a time when life should be fun when watching your children grow up should be recorded and seeing the last teenage years captured forever in your heart. Yet God has placed us on this road and I ask myself how fair that truly is when you see your children cry or you see others just have normal lives. Our lives seamed trapped in a lost crowded city street struggling to find our way through.
So if your reading this take a moment to think how an orphan must feel because truly divorce in my eyes is like that. In truth God does look after the orphans He is the father of all fathers.
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My Mothers Day

Today is British Mothers day. I saw my girls at 3pm today. My life feels like a sinking boat waves crashing around. Some say I am strong. Me I am not sure if I believe that. As I sit here and type not knowing if I will have a house, a car, my girls or what. I am reminded that in the midst of a storm there is a new day. I smile and laugh more maybe that is the light just peaking through. Last night my friends took me out we went to this Italian restaurant this chap sang and smiled and laughed my friends husband sang a long with him and we all just laughed and sang old songs. I sat captured in the moment of sheer escapism from the life I live. It was wonderful it bought back happy memories of my Dad happy memories of the silly things I did as a child and it bought back a part of me.
My day is very bleak at the moment I do know one thing for sure My God will reign He will rise me up out of these ashes and I will walk and fly one day. I just wish it was soon.Because my heart is heavy and I have cried a million trillion tears.
Be encourage as we have a little faith God will move mountains I am just stubborn enough most days to believe that but in the days I am not please lift me up and in the days you are not I will lift you up.
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Truth and Honesty

If one thing I dislike is people who do not tell the truth. You ask my girls they will tell you mum hates the truth not be told. A few years ago someone told me that truth and honesty did not mean that much to them. That same person sat this week not been honest about anything. As Christians we truly let the light of God fade out if we think that God does not see the lies we make. It is better to be honest and live with that over your head than know that God heard you lie that is my opinion. As this week draws to an end and the clocks in America change I ask you to really think what honesty means to you and truth. Here is what it means to me Freedom, Life with Hope, a forgiving God and a day of God revealing what was really in our hearts.
To all you British Mum's Happy mothers Day for Sunday.
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A Little Thought

A little thought before we speak would sure make the world a better place. Last night, someone said something, and it upset me last night and today. This person did not know it nor did they probably realize it. But inside I cried a lot. If we all took a moment to think before we speak, I wonder how better this world would be. It also taught me that as I made a comment to this person, this person then said nothing. If someone responds in a way that you can see they have been bothered, surely it is better to make a comment like, "Are you alright?", instead of going on with our own lives. I have a friend who's husband needs a job yet I wonder how many people are helping them. It is so easy to say nothing and not help when people go through hard times.
My message is simple think before you speak and help as much as you can. Isn't that what God would do?
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Long road Home

As I sit here looking at the week ahead. I wonder where my life will end up. I have been very blessed with two wonderful girls. My life has been full through their blessing to me. As I face going back full time to work and as I daily look for a full time job. The dealing with school work, home and thinking of going back to college. I look and remember who I use to be. It is true this is a long road home. I wished I could fly home. But in saying that I could not do any of this without Christ. In Him all things are possible. I heard a song the other day Rain drops keep falling on my head.
How my dad and i use to sing and twirl umbrellas to that song. I saw a bag with colorful flowers on it, it was like a bed spread I had when I was four. Perhaps in all of this memories of where I came from are coming back. I believe God is showing me in all this He has not forgotten me.
The Bible says and this is in my words. Do not give up for I have overcome the world. I believe that means even in are darkest hours He will overcome with us.
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The divorce field is like a battle field Brutality

If anyone ever says divorce is easy they obviously have never been through it. Every person involved is taken captive every word spoken is twisted and every ounce of emotions is made raw and it is like vinegar been poured onto the wound.
In saying all of that and how brutal my road has been I will say that staying and holding onto God is the only way that a child or adult can make it through the brutality of it all. With one hand holding your children and the other holding onto a Bible you push through dodging the bombs and some days you hold the Bible closer others a friend is holding it for you.
What the devil has taken delight in destroying God truly holds us through it all. Weather you are a child or an adult hold on tight God is going to help you through.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.