Happy 50th Scott.

Today we let go of a balloon with the number fifty on it for my brother. I let go of one at work burst into tears and I wished Scott could of been here. It may sound silly to people but it helps to me to keep my brother alive. He was a good brother and one I miss. His house is now sold and his earthly things in storage or sold. No none of this will matter to anyone else. I listened to my mum today my heart breaking. We all go through grief sometime in our life. I am thankful for the compassion it has brought into my life just wished it had been a different way. So if you are grieving or learning to cope with a death of someone. I suggest you remember them on their Birthdays in a special way. Please have a cup of tea with me today. Happy 50th Scott..... Love you Lisa

Life and new roads.

This week my brother would of turned fifty.It is a moment I feel a little sad and as I try to walk my own new road, it is yet another tear I cry. I feel myself like a young child crying out for help. Please show me how to move on.

Please pick me up God. At times I have seen God move providing, money and food. But I will have to say that this road is a lonely road without many praises. Add to that the dreaded pollen that is everywhere where I live it makes me feel totally yuck.I love to close my eyes and see the lands of England especially the hills of Kent and the Lake District there I am transported to who I am. Enjoying the wonderful countryside trying to capture every piece of colour and land into my memory and vision. It is here where my heart roams. I don't know where my new road will take me. I do know that it will always take me across the many hills of England. If like me you are on a new road. Close your eyes and go back to a place that you love. You will find you there I am sure. Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Finding your place.

After 18 years of marriage,it seams a long road to find my feet. I sat with a friend yesterday just talking. It was so nice to just have someone ask me how I felt. I don't remember been asked much as a child of how I felt when my parents got divorced,nor been asked how I felt when I got divorced or when my brother died. Often we all forget to just reach out to someone. Little do we often forget that those footsteps might well be us in need one day. Take the time to listen, and real listen to someones heart. Please have a cup of tea with me today.

The Waltons

As a child I was allowed to stay up and watch the American series the Waltons. My brother and sister who were 5 and 7 years older than me had to now put up with me staying up late to watch this show with them.
Today I now watch The Waltons with my children. One thing for sure is that morals and the standards that this series stood for will in fact stand the course of time. I love the family commitment i love the morals that they all stood for. There is so much that many of us can take from this series.
I long for a family like that, but even as I watch it I learn a few lessons about life itself and I am thankful all these years on that my children can learn valuable lessons from the series I once watched with my brother and sister.
One amazing thing is that still today those actors when back together are just like a big happy family. None of them has written slanderous things about the show or slammed any member. All have treated each other with total respect.
I think we could all learn a thing or two from this show.
In the words of the Waltons
Good night ...
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

God has not forgotten you nor me.

Well life has been a bit bumpy so sorry for no posting. The pollen where I live is terrible I do not like spring at all. In fact i have been telling everyone roll on November. I have ended up meeting some wonderful women recently that have been encouraging me to move on and just have really lifted me up. It is amazing in this big world how many people pull you down and how few lift you up. I do encourage you that when you least expect God to send someone is the moment God will send someone your way. Today we tried cakes out and were so blessed by this once single mom. I did not expect that at all today.
See it is in moments of sheer what now God moments that He tells us He has not forgotten us.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Children from divorced homes.

Well I have an ear infection it is driving me around the bend I cannot wait to see a doctor on Monday I am feeling very sick and dizzy. When my parents got divorced I was the only one in my class who was going through anything like that, I felt isolated and alone. It is surprising all those years on that many a divorce child feels the same. They are told how they feel and often not included in things because of the lack of understanding and compassion that others shows. Many a divorced child is told how they feel and what they should feel. But each case is very different no two cases are the same how one person deals with divorce might well be different than another.So it is with a child, teen or even adult who finds themselves on this road.
I am surprised at how little life in this area has changed.
If you know of any child who has lost a parent or who is from a divorced home be the first to listen be the first to be a friend because that is what they are asking for no more than every human being.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Reflection.

As a child I use to look at myself in the mirror wondering what I would look like when I grew old. Now I am old I look in the mirror wondering what I ever saw in wondering what I would be in years to come. This week I heard that my late brothers house went up for sale. It hit home even more the tragedy of death, seeing pictures of a house emptied and knowing that once a family filled those rooms. It is an empty type of feeling. But in feeling all those raw emotions, I found myself reminding myself to keep the good memories and hold onto them. Even through my divorce, I have tried against all odds to look back and see the happy times. It is so true in life often the bad out weighs the good, but it is our choice and ours alone what we spend our time reflecting on. I think this world would be a better place if we pointed out the good and not focus on the bad so much. It is true there is a lot of sadness in this world but together we all could find hope.
My late brothers house will be sold and new life will fill those rooms, another chapter in an old home and me I will press on holding onto to the memory of the cricket game I played at his house with him the last time I saw Scott.I will try my in it all to look up to God and say here make good out of all this brokenness. How about you what will you do? I will tell you holding onto bitterness just hurts you.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

A rainbow.

Ever felt like, people are telling you what you aren't doing, pointing out your faults. Your wondering about your car, if it will make it, the house needs repair. Your wondering if you will ever get on your feet. If you will ever just take a time to have a break and Smell the roses. Sometimes you wonder if all the roses are just gone. You keep trudging forward holding onto dreams, not knowing how on earth they will ever come to reality. Well I beat we all have had days, and years like that.
In it all it is finding even just one person who will see the good in us. Hold your hand be an encouragement to you. The other day I read a verse three times. Just so I had some positive words in me. The world is so negative one has to reach out and hold onto God I know it is very hard trust me. This is the hardest road I have ever traveled and I would not wish it on anyone but it has to have a light and to that I just keep on hoping for.
That I will be able to provide for my family, will get to take us all home and will bless others.
Hold on and keep Believing I do believe one day there will be a rainbow for us all.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Never give up

I guess many people have looked at my blog some make comments,and others well I would rather them not. I guess life is like that. It appears that in all I have done the nasty comments just keep on coming along. It's very hard to pick yourself up and find out who you are after years of just staying home. I always wanted to be my own boss I liked the idea of marketing a good product. But where do I go now how do I channel all those dreams from years gone by, to make a difference in this world oh so many years on.
People have said that I will never get on a plane, truth be known if I was ever given the chance to blog and write about this great world my family and I would fly around it. I love the idea that I could say "I over came and I blessed other in it all."
I love my blog you will never know how much writing means to me. I may not have all the coma's in the right place and I may every now and again spell a word wrong. But I love it. I wished I could make a publisher believe in me. It is such a struggle. I am sure it is for many.
I always say Dream Big but I so hope for myself and many that my Dreams become reality.
They are very simple a little home, a car that runs oh how I would love to make a veggie garden. I would love to help others in such a huge way.
How about you?
Well whatever you are going through whether car issues or emotional. Don't give up. You never know when a silver lining will come along.
Please have a cup of tea with me.