I feel the earth tremble under my feet.

Each day is a walk of faith. Today my Brother turned 48 I rang and told him that each day I walk by Faith. It is true I do not know if I will keep this house or where my girls will go to school. I apply for every job I can and long for a teacher assistant job. I make children laugh and smile at my register and I question when will the dawn break in this septic mess. Yet in it all I have a peace that God is going to do something amazing for me and my wonderful girls. That in it all the earth is going to tremble. Like the song says I feel the earth tremble under my feet and I do know that God is moving. I might count the pennies and I may have cried a million tears but I know truly I tried my best with blue bow in my hair and a smile on my face I look and say each day to God let today be a new day when good news comes our way and the earth truly tremble under our feet.
As many take of the passover and many prepare for Easter my sincere hope is that God does amazing miracle for me and some wonderful friends who are going through some tough times. To them I say I feel the earth tremble under our feet and I hear a happy song coming soon to our mouths. Redemption draws near friends. The earth will tremble under our feet and we will rejoice with our amazing saviour.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Angels sent each day.

A smile is truly worth so much. Yesterday at work a man came through my line his smile brightened up my day even though i handed him the wrong change. I remembered him from a couple of people who had come to talk to me and the girls about their church. Then a friend came by and hugged me. All of a sudden my world of feeling down felt not so down it felt God had indeed sent me Angels to lift me up in the day. I have a friend Wendy her smile lifts me up in the darkest moments it reflects hope and in that I see there is a brighter day a head. I surely hope so.
I have flu today but still have to apply for a full time job. Onwards and upwards to that better day ahead.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Unseen people.

The girls and I have a friend called Sir Paul we meet him a while ago, he has a bubbling character and serves others with his wife. It is amazing how a simple an act of kindness an act of a simple smile when you feel down can change how you feel when someone who is truly living for God enters in. Sir Paul serves not for the money but for the joy of knowing that he serves an amazing God and the blessing that him serving others does he is an unknown hero so to speak. As are so many people the janitor at your church or school the person who prays day and night for you. The single mother who counts and saves her money to make sure her children have a special treat. The child who gets up and makes sandwiches and helps their mother or the child who helps put dishes away when they don't want to. Last night I had the privilege of praying for my brother I just prayed for him it is a privilege to be there for a person in a time of need to go beyond one's self.To those people I say thank you.
Those attributes is what i want in my life.
Please have a cup of tea with me today

Facing the giants.

After I wrote my blog last night I thought of my friend LeaAnn she is like David instead of the 5 rocks she picks up say five verses or five people who will agree in prayer with her and with that in her hand she stands before the Giants in many people's lives and prays. She like many others stand in the gap or in front of the giants or the mountains when in our own strength we feel we cannot.
She like many others are the modern day David's who make Christianity great and make it living proof. She also defines what it means to go the extra mile sometimes it is not in seeing a person but in praying for a person that makes a difference.
May I one day be that David for others.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Stongest people.

We are often at aw when we see a strong person pick up a car or do amazing things. But perhaps strength is not measured but our own strength but how much we lean on God. I view my life as a walk of faith at the moment each day the weight sometimes is tremendously heavy others when I lean on God the weight does not seam so much. My friend LeaAnn is just a God gift of light to me. There are many things I would redo over in my life but never the day she came into mine. She might not be able to carry a car or bend a bar. But the weight she carries in prayers and has others praying not just for me but others too is worth the weight of the most heaviest item ever made. To me she is an example of a strong person in God and to me that strength is worth more than the strength of being strong in my own eyes.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Mummy can you walk a little faster.

It's amazing being a single Mum how much when you are not a single mum you take for granted. I did a lot before I was separated. But my one moment of time was my bath. Now it is disturbed now it is me thinking of all the things needed to be done. You feel like you are on a dare I say hamster wheel as I do not like hamsters. The wheel stops for a moment when your kids stay with your spouse and then the emotions crank in you count the minutes down to when the door will fly open and you will hug them tight again . You feel constantly like Mummy simply is not walking faster enough and you wonder if there will come a day when you simply take a moment to enjoy life.
So as I Mummy walk a little faster I long for the day I can walk a little slower and enjoy this amazing life God has blessed me with. But for now I will walk a little faster and hold onto God's hand as I hold it very tight.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Your heart longs for normalcy

I think the most difficult thing through a divorce is that weather you are a child or an adult your heart longs for normalcy. The times you see someone smile and laugh. You notice couples holding hands more you see families more. It is like all of sudden you are not part of that crowd and your heart aches for that. I think even when your spouse is nice to you through all this your heart yearns for everything to just be magically put right. Some say people should never get back together. I think let go and let God. Only God and time will tell the fate of two people and if two people will ever change and weather they will get back together or not. Perhaps normalcy is truly just holding on each day to God and knowing whatever He does that you will be alright weather you are a child or an adult.
Surely in my heart that is what I hope for.
Please have a cup of tea with me today

Lost in a crowd

It's amazing how everyone is busy when you call them and want a friend to come over. You think that divorce is just a fragment in time. The fragments affect the roots of a child from friends saying they are always busy to them not knowing what to say. Everyone seams normal accept this new family of ours and where do we belong.?There are clothes to fold and the dishes to wash. There is the constant fight to keep a float and you feel like a sinking boat. While others quote how they are off for Easter break or off to the movies. Fragmented friends in a time when life should be fun when watching your children grow up should be recorded and seeing the last teenage years captured forever in your heart. Yet God has placed us on this road and I ask myself how fair that truly is when you see your children cry or you see others just have normal lives. Our lives seamed trapped in a lost crowded city street struggling to find our way through.
So if your reading this take a moment to think how an orphan must feel because truly divorce in my eyes is like that. In truth God does look after the orphans He is the father of all fathers.
Please have a cup of tea with today.

My Mothers Day

Today is British Mothers day. I saw my girls at 3pm today. My life feels like a sinking boat waves crashing around. Some say I am strong. Me I am not sure if I believe that. As I sit here and type not knowing if I will have a house, a car, my girls or what. I am reminded that in the midst of a storm there is a new day. I smile and laugh more maybe that is the light just peaking through. Last night my friends took me out we went to this Italian restaurant this chap sang and smiled and laughed my friends husband sang a long with him and we all just laughed and sang old songs. I sat captured in the moment of sheer escapism from the life I live. It was wonderful it bought back happy memories of my Dad happy memories of the silly things I did as a child and it bought back a part of me.
My day is very bleak at the moment I do know one thing for sure My God will reign He will rise me up out of these ashes and I will walk and fly one day. I just wish it was soon.Because my heart is heavy and I have cried a million trillion tears.
Be encourage as we have a little faith God will move mountains I am just stubborn enough most days to believe that but in the days I am not please lift me up and in the days you are not I will lift you up.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Truth and Honesty

If one thing I dislike is people who do not tell the truth. You ask my girls they will tell you mum hates the truth not be told. A few years ago someone told me that truth and honesty did not mean that much to them. That same person sat this week not been honest about anything. As Christians we truly let the light of God fade out if we think that God does not see the lies we make. It is better to be honest and live with that over your head than know that God heard you lie that is my opinion. As this week draws to an end and the clocks in America change I ask you to really think what honesty means to you and truth. Here is what it means to me Freedom, Life with Hope, a forgiving God and a day of God revealing what was really in our hearts.
To all you British Mum's Happy mothers Day for Sunday.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

A Little Thought

A little thought before we speak would sure make the world a better place. Last night, someone said something, and it upset me last night and today. This person did not know it nor did they probably realize it. But inside I cried a lot. If we all took a moment to think before we speak, I wonder how better this world would be. It also taught me that as I made a comment to this person, this person then said nothing. If someone responds in a way that you can see they have been bothered, surely it is better to make a comment like, "Are you alright?", instead of going on with our own lives. I have a friend who's husband needs a job yet I wonder how many people are helping them. It is so easy to say nothing and not help when people go through hard times.
My message is simple think before you speak and help as much as you can. Isn't that what God would do?
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

Long road Home

As I sit here looking at the week ahead. I wonder where my life will end up. I have been very blessed with two wonderful girls. My life has been full through their blessing to me. As I face going back full time to work and as I daily look for a full time job. The dealing with school work, home and thinking of going back to college. I look and remember who I use to be. It is true this is a long road home. I wished I could fly home. But in saying that I could not do any of this without Christ. In Him all things are possible. I heard a song the other day Rain drops keep falling on my head.
How my dad and i use to sing and twirl umbrellas to that song. I saw a bag with colorful flowers on it, it was like a bed spread I had when I was four. Perhaps in all of this memories of where I came from are coming back. I believe God is showing me in all this He has not forgotten me.
The Bible says and this is in my words. Do not give up for I have overcome the world. I believe that means even in are darkest hours He will overcome with us.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.

The divorce field is like a battle field Brutality

If anyone ever says divorce is easy they obviously have never been through it. Every person involved is taken captive every word spoken is twisted and every ounce of emotions is made raw and it is like vinegar been poured onto the wound.
In saying all of that and how brutal my road has been I will say that staying and holding onto God is the only way that a child or adult can make it through the brutality of it all. With one hand holding your children and the other holding onto a Bible you push through dodging the bombs and some days you hold the Bible closer others a friend is holding it for you.
What the devil has taken delight in destroying God truly holds us through it all. Weather you are a child or an adult hold on tight God is going to help you through.
Please have a cup of tea with me today.